HELP I NEED POSITIVE ENERGY · High Vibe Tribe

Jun '24 (edited) • Ask for Advice

HELP I NEED POSITIVE ENERGY

Today has been a very testing day. My mother whom I live with because I have nowhere else to go right now and she's anarcissistic hateful human being. She knows I'm starting an art business Cyn's Passion Customized Artwork and she claimed she was having someone paint the deck that I go on each morning to meditate and paint. However when I came home from my job at the Hilton Hotel I work at also the deck wasn't painted... When I woke up this morning to meditate and paint I couldn't find all my art supplies that she had told me to pack up in a bag that was on the deck. I searched for a minute before calling her to find out she threw it away. In that bag I had all my paint brushes, acrylic paint, my blow-dryer, even some candles, sage and crystals I used for meditation. All gone in the dumpster while I was at work the day before... I had a nervous breakdown. She has always resented me when she asked me at the age of 10 if she should divorce my father and I told her yes ( long story ) and she still goes back to see him to this day I'm 39 years old now just 29 years ago our whole dynamic changed back then and now she is sabotaging my art business because she knows I want to be a full-time artist it's my purpose it's my passion even my children love art she's emotionally abusive and I'm stuck there I have to get a car in order to get out of there I came up with $1,400 by working at the Hilton to get insurance and a down payment on a car but because I haven't worked at the Hilton long enough they won't give me a loan not even the buy here pay here would give me a loan because my work history isn't long enough and my art business isn't considered work history because I don't have a tax form on it yet I have to have a cosigner which I don't have so in order for me to get out of her grip I have to get a car I've been shopping on Facebook marketplace looking for one .. anyway all that car stuff is irrelevant that's just my attempt to get out so that's my action if you will if you can send me positive vibes I would appreciate it I feel like I'm suffocating I know shadow work is hard and forgiving her for all the sexual abuse she allowed to happen in necessary but I'm really struggling pleased help me by suggestions as to handle this and as much positive energy as you can spare. Thank you for listening. Namaste

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