Do you secretly feel defective?
You see other people change and live well-adjusted lives, but it doesn't work for you. On the outside, things look good. People look up to you. Inside, you're sure you're defective, and no one would understand. I understand. I've felt like I was the problem, the broken piece in every equation. I learned it wasn't me. I was given bad information and a lack of skills needed to live the abundant life Jesus lived and died for me to have. I didn't need to try harder. I needed to try different. I needed practice. Practice believing God wasn't frustrated with me or disappointed in me. Practice accepting He loved me because He chose to, and that would never change. Practice loving myself as God loves me, so I can love others and not just try to appease them so they will love me. The longer I walk this road with the Lord, the more I see His gentleness, His kindness, His patience. He wants a relationship with me more than He wants me to change. The beautiful thing is that as I build a relationship with Him, I am changed.