I found this book called the Big Leap by Gay Hendricks (I thought and the Goosify team would especially like it - just because of the authorโs nameโฆ;) Anyways - in it - Gay talks about how we often settle for our zone of Excellence in life and avoid the leap into the unknown of our Zone of Genius - and he outlines several reasons why..,
The umbrella that he finds them all under is called the Upper Limit Problem - and for me it comes in the form of the โcrime of outshiningโ which I recently have been bumping up against in a big way.
What triggers the Upper Limit Problem is when we start to feel too good, or to enjoy too much abundance - and we sabotage ourself.
For me - it looks like fading into the distance, losing contact with people, and becoming way too serious.
When I first found Skool - I got super excited - and then my inner cosmedian blew up in this crazy community- and I started doing things to tamper myself.
I started moving less, eating sugar, which is never good for my โADD brain hereโ - and stopped doing things that I loved. I basically shut off from receiving love.
I just got off the phone with my parents who have had a pretty bad flu for 9 days, and which put a stop to any holiday visits. My Dad was so disgruntled, and barely wanted to speak to me - his lips parched, and energy so low. It was often in his presence that I learned to dim my lightโฆ
I had the amazing opportunity to interview Goose this last little while and I felt very vulnerable after, because I shared part of my spiritual journey with him out of excitement and my love of the incredible and miraculous of life.
Goose reminded me that โfreedom of speechโ is of such fundamental importance - and to be honest - I have self-censored myself so much in my lifeโฆI am pretty remorseful about it.
Anyways - this is partly why I never posted the interview in here - because I felt embarrassed by my own uniqueness and beauty - and I was starting to feel too good rubbing shoulders with some pretty inspiring folks.
So I am writing this vulnerable post - to make ammends, and to say thanks to the friends that have accepted me as I am.
I am hearby letting go of all the useless clutter of beliefs that have held me back from shinning my gifts as both a Heartist and a Cosmedian - or whatever the fuck I am underneath it all.
Cheers to the Lights within us all!
Enjoy the interview if ya missed it!