Note: this really belongs in God Talk but the app wouldn't let me, so here it is. When confused about the Bible, try reading it aloud. That slows your mind down, you also hear it. Bible study group also helps because evidently I am not my best counsel.

Funny how things go off the rails JUST WHEN you make a decision to take big actions. That's not a coincidence. Since I "left" yall in 2016, my experiences have been FULL of unreasonable amounts of adversity. (This week has been no exception and it's only Wednesday for Pete's sake!) I've been a single mom with a horrible, criminal level ex so I KNOW ABOUT ADVERSITY... but this...the past 10 years...this was different. This is how I see it. If a person believes in God (as I do), then by definition you have to know Evil exists (I don't gratify "it" with a name). I have seen stuff and experienced stuff and heard stuff that would make your skin crawl, but these past 10 years have been a WHOLE NEW LEVEL of darkness. What is it the Good Book says about refining fire and such? 365 times in that book God tells us to "fear not" (literally...365 verses...one for every day of the year). Honestly, I haven't had "fear" really, but I have experienced severe defeat, depression, anger, frustration, and hopelessness. But no matter what, I KNOW WHAT I KNOW and part of that is that GOD's GOT ME. I've been given the honor of seeing God work on my behalf to keep abusive people away from me (family members, and former "friends"), and those I can't escape, He has humbled in my presence. Not being boastful here - just trying to show the gritty side of what walking life as a Christian is really like. I didn't have to DO a thing other than what God led me to do or not do, and obey that (even when I wanted to punch people's lights out!). I know many of your stories too, and I feel a burden for yall, in a good way, that I regret disappearing like I did. But know this...it wasn't due to my WANT to vanish, it was due to GOD'S WORK he needed to have me do. On some level, living where I do is like battling the Final Boss in a video game. I'm not done yet, and just like in a video game, you usually need help from other players to defeat the common FINAL enemy. I hope you are ready, because if memory serves correct, we as a COMMUNITY were a force to be reconned with back in the day.

Stockings trees presents and lights. The wonder of Santa and silent nights. We all have a memory so sweet and so dear. Sometimes so precious it brings forth a tear. At this special time of celebration, remember the reason for our jubilation. The glitter and sparkle is exciting its true, but the most special gift is that His birth was for you. Composed in 1996 by Wesley Williams