GOD LOVES LAUGHTER · Beautiful Mind

GOD LOVES LAUGHTER

I think God's laughing at me...

I'm scanning an amazing new book, "A Beautiful Mind' by Holly Achaya. For those of us on last week's call, there was a moment there when it appeared to have been given and lost in one cheeky cosmic moment. Thanks to a quirk of fate, the genius of the community and of course the magic of the book itself, it reappeared and as I scanned the contents I came to realise that there are some things that are important. This book is one. I'm in a state of chaos, as I'm moving house... this is reflected in my mind, heart and soul. When I look out at the world, it gets worse. Then I opened the book and read a few lines chosen at random from the vast buffet of delicious content, and I'm slapped (quite hard actually) by a pithy discussion about 'Radical Forgiveness'. My very human ego wants the legitimate anger triggered by memories of the past, it wants to jump up and down and hit someone. A few someones actually (like the person who demanded an explanation when I used bleach to clean the filthy loo in the new place...). Forgive???

Small me, angry, frustrated, tired, sad me dosen't want that. Small me wants the shitty people to feel my pain. But even small, egocentric me knows the pain I'm feeling is making ME suffer. It's a choice.

So on this journey of mine I am given a book that speaks of a non-dual world, pure love, and accepting that it's all just happening in my imagination. It's not real. None of it. That's a big step, to let it go. (Let's face it, they deserve a slapping.)

I'm sure we are all experimenting with these big ideas now, and wondering what IS. I'm sharing this because everything in my own little life feels amplified, as if the volume has been turned up. I can feel the calm of stepping back, letting all the air out of the balloon of my overinflated, emotion-filled self, to allow the soft light of pure love flow back and gently fill the space. I'm not gone, just learning to stop the movie I've been running, using a collection of fragments of stored data that my brain absorbed, bundled and labelled 'IN EMERGENCY BREAK GLASS'. I am truly shocked at how addicted I am to the habit of anger, and how simple the process to stop. I just have to choose.

I have chosen. LOVE IS.

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