So I was out for a walk yesterday and suddenly got this image that planet earth is just one big nursing home for all the manifestations of God walking around with dementia, completely delusional 🤭 Today I attempted to write a poem about it that I thought I would share. The Residents Every morning, Earth opens the curtains. We wake in borrowed bodies, stardust in a clean shirt, and reach for our names. They are printed on our wristbands. We know what to call ourselves. Yet we have forgotten what we are. One of us keeps his worth in a bank. Another checks the mirror to see whether she still deserves to be loved. We quarrel over chairs, over whose God is God, over who has taken what we cannot find. We forget the moment that frightened us, but carry the fright from room to room. A whole world of divine dementia, the infinite insisting it is running out. Happiness sits beside us. We have forgotten her face. We search for her everywhere, watching the clock, terrified we will run out of time. One of us sits down beside another and begins to peel an orange. The room grows fragrant. Then someone laughs, and the sound travels down the hall. We lose our place in the argument. We lose track of the time. God feeds God a little piece of sun, laughing so hard she has forgotten to be afraid of dying.

👉🏼 Access the full class, PDF's and homework here Welcome and Setting the Tone Holly opened by reminding the group that this work is about removing what stands in the way, not adding more to yourself. Finding yourself means letting go of conditioning, masks, and false ideas, including the ones you hold about yourself. You are already whole, complete, and creative, and the knowledge you need is already within you. The work is about remembering rather than learning. Practical Notes Recordings are uploaded to the "Open Group Call and Practice Resources" folder, and the optional worksheet is in the classroom beneath the recording. It is a set of prompts for questioning your being. Holly emphasized that the most important skill you can develop is an open, ongoing relationship with your being, one in which you can ask questions and receive answers. Without that connection, you can be swayed by conditioning, by other people's thoughts, and by your own chaotic mind. Why Failure Matters The ten grand illusions reinforce one another. Need was the first, and failure is the second. The chain works like this: you believe you need something to be happy and whole, and when you don't get it, you conclude that you have failed. That conclusion plants doubt about your happiness, safety, and wholeness, and the doubt spreads to yourself, the universe, love, and God. If need isn't questioned deeply enough, the mind adds failure to make need seem reasonable. Naming Your Failures The group closed their eyes and let memories of perceived failures rise, writing each one down as "I failed at..." The lists covered business, money, relationships, health, family, creativity, purpose, boundaries, self-love, and the body. Feelings that surfaced included shame, sadness, heaviness, embarrassment, anxiety, loneliness, and a sense of being hollow or insubstantial. Holly also distinguished between coping and healing. Coping keeps the pain held, while healing allows it to be released.

👉🏼 Access the full class, PDF's and homework here Welcome and Setting the Tone - Opening with a breathing exercise and a settling-in moment - This space is not about seeking, fixing, or becoming a better version of yourself - Nothing is broken or missing. The work is about remembering who you already are - The sculptor analogy: removing the excess clay to reveal what was already there About These Calls - The calls are shifting from an open format to a space for working on yourself - They will also support people training to help others - Invite-only: you can bring someone, but they must meet the facilitator first - Commitment matters, since the depth of the work builds over time Creativity, Fear, and Love - Art and spirituality are two sides of the same coin - Everyone is creative. The real question is whether you create from fear or from love - As the belief in separation loosens, creativity opens up - Examples of creative paths: art, music, dance, writing, philosophy, guiding others, therapy The Four Pillars - Accurate diagnosis: understanding how your mind functions - Connection to something greater than yourself - Forgiveness: a reinterpretation from a limited perspective to clear knowing - Creating from love The Ten Grand Illusions - Need: you must have something to be happy or whole - Failure: you can fall short of what you need - Separation: the most powerful illusion, which makes all the others seem real - Insufficiency: the belief in lack - Requirement: you must do something to earn what you need - Judgment: something greater will evaluate you - Condemnation: you will be punished for failing to measure up - Conditionality: love must be earned - Superiority: some people are better than others - Ignorance: you cannot know the truth - Choosing the Focus: Need - The group votes in the chat for the illusion that bothers them most - Need is chosen as the starting point because it runs through everything else - Each week, one illusion will be taken apart using forgiveness

Class Overview Welcome to the first Open Group Call. These calls are open to anyone in the community and will run every Thursday from 4-7pm UTC-6. In this first class, we start by getting to know each other. The group includes longtime members and people joining for the first time, and everyone takes a couple of minutes to share who they are, what they're passionate about, and their experience with non-duality, the understanding that there is one, not two. Whatever you're building, creating, or healing, the deeper wish is usually the same: peace, freedom, and an end to suffering. Nobody really wants to be bound, trapped, or stuck. The class explores where that suffering comes from: the belief in separation. Fear, anger, anxiety, judgment, money stress, conflict, and even sickness can often be traced back to the sense that we are cut off from one another and from the whole. These patterns can show up even when we consciously say we believe we're one. When they do, they reveal where the belief still lives beneath the surface, and that's where the work is. Waking up isn't something you can force. It's closer to surrender than effort. Trying harder inside the dream won't wake you up. What helps is seeing through the belief in separation, which lets you remember your natural state: peaceful, clear, creative, and whole. Many teachers across traditions point to the same truth, including Alan Watts, Thich Nhat Hanh, the Vedanta teachers, and the text A Course in Miracles. This shift can feel a little shocking, like shackles coming off. Your body and mind may need time to readjust to being free. Along the way, you may notice knowing, gifts, and abilities returning that you had before you learned to believe you were separate. After this brief introduction by Holly, it turns into introductions. Introductions Cole Blouin lives in the East Village in New York and is a musician "in the process of growing as a philosopher." He found Holly through Xander and says his first real experience of non-dual thinking came through her. He read Zen texts, Alan Watts, Thich Nhat Hanh, and the Bhagavad Gita in his late teens and early twenties, but back then he was focused more on practical meditating. When he met Holly in late April or early May they did a diagnostic hypnosis session that was "really amazing" and shifted his perspective. For a while he tried to sit with the insight that there is only love and everything is love. Then a lot of life happened and he hasn't been practicing so intentionally, so it is nice to be coming back. He mentions he's getting waves of cold symptoms.