How ADHD + Anxiety Made Me a Better Special Ed
I’ve spent my entire life with ADHD and anxiety — and honestly, it’s one of the biggest reasons I’m such an effective special education teacher today. People hear “ADHD + anxiety” and think challenge. But for me, it became a kind of superpower… just not always in the “cute” way. Growing up, my anxiety tortured me enough to overcompensate for the ADHD. That meant I was a straight-A student who could memorize literally anything — even stuff that bored me to death (looking directly at you, Social Studies). Ask me today what I learned? Absolutely nothing. Not one single fact. I memorized it, took the test, got the A, and then — poof. Gone. Replaced by whatever random song lyric my brain decided to loop that day. Teachers always thought I wasn’t paying attention (spoiler: I wasn’t). But I was a master at keeping one layer of my brain cracked open JUST enough to parrot back whatever they said if they called on me. I didn’t understand a damn thing, but I could mimic it well enough that they eventually stopped asking. I was “good at school” — but I wasn’t actually learning. I was memorizing. It wasn’t until I started teaching special education that everything clicked. For the first time in my life, I learned the why behind the things I was taught to just memorize. Math? I always loved it — but if we’re being honest, I only loved the parts I could memorize. Formulas? Great. Rules that always work? Even better. But nobody ever taught me why they worked. Nobody ever taught me number sense, mental strategies, flexible thinking. Then I started teaching kids who needed exactly that. College told us what to do as teachers — but never why. And the “why” is EVERYTHING in special ed. Once I started diving into that, it opened a whole new world for me. For the first time, I realized how limiting and outdated the “there is one right way” approach truly is. Growing up, we were taught: ➡️ Do it THIS way ➡️ Don’t question it ➡️ If you don’t get it, you’re the problem But that’s not how learning works.