Generational traumas Abuse in utero Domestic abuse Narcissistic abuse Sexual abuse Medical negligence Traumatic labour and after all that You can still get up and face the day and look after your family So have I !! I have good and bad days but my whakapapa ( family lineage) is what keeps me going! If you need support please reach out or comment CHANGE ! #smjrongoa #smjmassagetherapy #Selfcare

Realize my whole career is a trauma response 😭 😆

Tonight I'm going to talk about something serious.. This was me when I was In the Thick of a domestic and narcissistic relationship we lived in Invercargill in the south Island I had a partner and 5 kids we moved 1000 kms away from home I left me dad and mum and went to try make myself a better future and I was studying Therapeutic and sports massage for 3 yrs .. many add on stories to this . I think I had a big fight with my lil kids dad and I went to my friends place to get away from it we got on the piss straight away. She sent me this a few weeks ago looking back now I see the pain in my eyes and trying to smile on the outside. Even my poor baby looks sad and tired . This was taken roughly 11 -13 years ago . I was on drugs and drinking whenever I could I developed a addiction and it stayed with me for quite a few years after this .. but the trauma from this relationship took me the same ammont of time to heal 11years to heal we were together 12 years and I should of left in the 9 th yr.. Every new year I was supposed to start course I would end up missing the first week because I would have black eyes .. many times he would smash the wifi box and my computer and phones so I couldn't contact anyone or police .. one time I had stayed up late to finish my assignment and he smashed my computer to peices. lucky I had such good tutors whom I would tell my incidences to and they were understanding and gave me extensions . They also let me just pass the courses at 50% I'm so grateful to them ... While I studied he was going behind my back cheating on me and messaging other women one time he hooked up with a classmate after I had graduated and said she initiated it .. total lies ! In my first year graduation he was pulling bunny ears behind me and my tutor and he used my certificate as a placemat after which still have crumbs on it . Many sad and disgusting stories I could share but the basis of this is to show myself and others you can get out of domestic abuse and make a happy life thankful my children most of all who lived that life with me as I was too weak to leave at the time I promised myself I would graduate no matter what he did and now I work in Rongoa maori doing mirimiri.. I have qualifications a Diploma in Therapeutic and sports massage..and I help other people with theyr traumas and have recently become acc registered for rongoa maori. ..