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A mindset win (more to do)

Hello

I went from super fit, working hard, productive, happy, positive and confident to burnout and agoraphobia as a back to school immigrant single mom. From straight As competing in tech with tough young men to dropping out.

So the win.

I have been doing inner work.

So i did a lot of this before, recovering grom narc abuse, which got me this far.

I thought i was fine and started grinding.

The win, though.

So i started tracking somatic sensations and working on childhood memories that came up. Opened up a can of worms.

With NLP, tapping, IFS, TCM etc

I now notice the issues shifting. The freeze thawing. Peace. Stilness. Silence.

It wasn't burnout. It was unaddressed stuff.

Related to the usual suspect: narc mom.

Not about her, not about blame. But about residue that needed resolution and presence.

So i feel it is a win. To finally begin to feel progress after the strangeness of the extinction burst. Of the old patterns and systems trying to make me small where i was "supposed ' to be. To realize that leaving the home country and working hard and making progress wasn't the end, the patterns still needed dismantling.

Because now i know, i can work on these things.

And i am making progress. Not flashy but real.

My inner me was still terrified of the narcMom. And self sabotaging to mollify her rage at my success. This is where i need to do the work.

Presence wirh inner me.

Grateful to God

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