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DAYS 1-7 (FEEL IT CHALLENGE )

Day 1 : I’M FINALLY LOOKING OUT FOR JUST ME !!!!

Day 2: Stop acting like it doesn’t bother me because it does , I don’t want to give up but I have the following emotions to deal with ;

LOVE , JOY , PEACE , TRUST , FRUSTRATION , LONELINESS !!!!

Day 3: THE LETTER THAT NOBODY IS SUPPOSED TO READ ;

I can’t stop thinking about how out of all the relationships I’ve had, no one could touch my heart the way you did. We’ve known each other almost our entire lives, and when we finally decided to take that step towards making a real relationship out of our friendship, it was amazing. Then I remember noticing how there were times of frustration when I had to keep telling you to stop with the flirtation . I wasn’t even doing that all the times you saw me perform on stage , and even though I can’t say you would have cheated but it definitely pissed me off. Then of course the denial and playing stupid like the “ What, I just thought he looked like someone I know “ , yet you had that look like you wanted to take them home at least once . Sometimes I would ask “ You want to sleep with him ? , go ahead hook up with him if you want him that bad.” It was just that stupid to me and I really think that was because we were so close and at times think you forgot that we are now more than just friends , and so now you need to let me know if it’s better to go back to being friends. Then of course you would immediately say “ Oh your not going anywhere and definitely not getting rid of me. “ !!! The laughter, the tears, the great times and a few bad times, but when we finally realized that we had to discuss how we are going to raise the kids if we get married being that we both had two different ways of accepting what the Bible had to say and what we want our kids to believe. We knew we had to make that decision to say goodbye to each other. It was enough for us to realize the unhealthy tug of war with how to teach our kids to worship and our unhappiness with each other’s beliefs that would really be unfair to the kids, and so we chose the right thing, realizing it was for the best. However it still hurts to this day and yes I still miss you and think about you all the time .

Day 4 : remembering who I was, I really did trust women thinking all was great in relationships until you find out they were just putting up a front. A couple of them pulled complete surprises on me.

Day 5: what changed? As soon as she reached out to me and asked me to visit, I realized that she could be the one that I needed, someone that I knew all along was special. This was different , all of the sudden she changed up and her reaching out to me in the way that she did , made me realize and think that maybe finally this is what I was hoping for. It had me wondering if this was a sign that maybe this was meant to be.

Day 6 : after my visit, it happened instantly. I lost my previous frustration and pain along with distrust, and knew after we talked it was actually going to happen. She’s seven years older than me and I’ve always been crazy about her but never thought it would ever go there.

Day 7: What survived? I was so happy to know that I had hope still that there are opportunities for possible real relationships. My frustration was gone, my creativity. and my desire to write and produce was back. My heart survived, so I somehow didn’t give up completely and now my faith is now renewed, and I can be happy again. I always hid my feelings and just pretended everything is all good and just need to not dwell on it at all. So my patience also survived but barely .

Now this song I wrote called “THIS IS MY SONG “ is when I wrote for her when I realized we were going to have an opportunity to be together.

Here is the song https://richiestonecold.bandcamp.com/track/this-is-my-song-3

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DAYS 1-7 (FEEL IT CHALLENGE )