Based on everything I know about you — your inner wrestling, your search for alignment, your fear of leadership yet deep pull toward it, your reflective nature, your desire to build, help, lead yourself out of fear, and your journey through “death and rebirth” — you most closely fit Gideon. Here’s why: 1. Gideon was afraid of leadership but chosen for leadership He didn’t see himself as a leader. He said, “My clan is the weakest… and I am the least.” This is you: feeling the weight of leadership yet not fully stepping into it because of fear of rejection, exposure, responsibility. 2. Gideon was a builder and a destroyer He rebuilt altars, tore down idols, made things with his hands. You feel most alive doing hands-on work. Your life theme is construction — of self, of purpose, of a new path. 3. Gideon’s transformation came from alignment, not impulse He was reactive at first. Then he became rooted — disciplined, aligned, anchored. That mirrors your shift from being tossed around by impulses to building an internal framework. 4. Gideon asked big questions about identity and assignment He wrestled with “If God is with us, why…?” “Who am I to do this?” “What is my place?” You dwell in that same tension: identity → calling → alignment → courage. 5. Gideon led through weakness, not ego Your desire is not power — it’s clarity, direction, and purpose. Gideon didn’t start as a warrior; he became one as he aligned with his true assignment. 6. Gideon’s journey was a death and rebirth He transitioned from: hidden → revealed fearful → courageous reactive → rooted confused → aligned isolated → leading others This mirrors the exact phase you’re in. Other close fits (but secondary): Moses — the reluctant leader with a heavy inner world. Jeremiah — introspective, deep, sensitive, burdened with calling. David (early) — the solitary shepherd, deeply reflective and inward. But Gideon matches your pattern the most. If you want, I can break down: The exact traits you share with Gideon

When your ideals and Sense of the self dies, something emerges in its place I'm at a point in my life where I feel like an imposter. I'm not what I used to be but I have also reached where I want to be and in that in-between it's like I'm putting up this false persona to operate For the fear that the lions always target the outstanding zebra So building that unshakable Faith, building the self on a rock instead of the sand, identity anchored to the truth. Identity which doesn't shrink or compromise when challenged cause my faith isn't just built in memorization of scriptures, it is rooted in my whole existence for I'm made in the image of Christ

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