My able bodied me died on the 6 Jan 2024, I was reborn in a paralysed state and living another 40 years in this body. Make the most of what you have and don't take mushrooms, they f##k your head. I know a couple of people who have taken LSD in the 90's and never been the same since. I also have no filters these days and speak my mind as we are all equals when born and when on our death beds we are all worm fodder, earthly matter for the earth's nutrition and evolution. I also think that wishing your life away is a cry for help as your clearly not happy with your circumstances in the present and your the only one who can change that. Does this answer your question?