Most of the time I generally feel positive, I have done a lot of healing over the years for different experiences, but today I really don’t feel myself. So I thought I’d do a post because I know how important it is to speak up. I am a mum to a little lady who has fought cancer, and has lost her leg in the process to save her life essentially. Some days are better than others. We are on a prosthesis journey right now. There are days when it fits easy and other days it doesn’t for some reason, and this really stresses out my Freya. And in turn stresses me out. Sometimes I bounce back quickly, and other times the feeling stays. I am trying not to suppress it when it gets too much. We have yet another prosthetist appointment incoming through the post. Which I really dislike because appointments can interrupt my schedule. There are times when I feel like a really bad mum, I know it’s out of my control but wheeling her around more often than not lately is taking its toll. I just want her to grow in confidence and independence. I know these negative thoughts are far from the truth. I just wanted to put this out there because i know it’s important to speak up about our struggles. Lots of love

Yesterday I stood in front of around 40 to 50 lads on site and shared my story. No big production. Just honesty. I spoke about growing up where drinking was normal. How normal became habit. How habit turned into something that was quietly taking control. And how it eventually led me down a road I didn’t see coming. It wasn’t about preaching. It was about being real in an industry that doesn’t always make space for that. You could feel the room was with it. Proper attention. No messing about. Just listening. That’s what SPEAK is about. Creating space for conversations that should’ve been happening years ago. Overall, it was a solid day for SPEAK. We’re getting into the right rooms. And we’re only just getting started.

Proper solid day. Met a lot of the lads and the energy was bang on. What stood out most was how open people were to talking, although it took a min to get the point across, it was well received…. Some may say maybe even more than the pizzas! That openness is exactly what this space is about. No pretending. No masking. Just real conversations and a willingness to look at things differently. We are here to lift each other up, hold each other accountable, and get comfortable being uncomfortable. Growth does not come from staying where it feels safe. Nothing changes if nothing changes.

Hello you absolute fabulous human beings! 😍 I hope you have all had a really good weekend! And you are all doing well just wanted to send you all abit of love 🥰 and just a quick reminder that your all f*icking AMAZING!!💚😘

1. I am enough just as I am 2. I choose progress not perfection 3. I am worthy of happiness and love 4. I accept myself, and do not need the approval of others 5. I do not need to measure my own success using someone else’s ruler 6. I am proud of how far I have come 7. I do not need to wait for motivation The last one was definitely what I needed to hear myself say this morning, as I could have easily cancelled Pilates class, but I did it. And I am glad I went. What are you doing today, even if you don’t feel like it, to better yourself?