just watched the ✨replay✨ from 1/6. thank you, kate, for sharing more of your story (and for the bullwinkle 🫎 technique!). i could feel the shift in my body. i really appreciate the intention and attention you’ve put into this space. i look forward co-creating with you in this collective! gonna watch 1/13 now.

watched the ✨replay✨ from 1/13. very helpful! i hadn’t made the connection to time travel (which, is one of my favorite experiences!)…but it’s TOTALLY time travel that’s got me in a neurogenic bladder loop right now. the experience of not being able to control my bladder is new for me…last 12mo or so, with increasing frequency since august. in the last few months, the loss of predictability trap has kept me in a hyper vigilance loop at the first sensation that my bladder needs to empty. once the sensation is felt, i dissociate to a place where i’m counting steps to the bathroom, or, if a bathroom is not close, i’m counting steps (and calculating/mentally navigating obstacles) to a place where i can safely drop my pants to pee…even in public. my attention is almost fully on that effort, while my body sits anxiously in the present. anticipating. bracing. dreading. i am aware, when its happening, that the thinking loop is what will almost certainly ensure i have an accident (or hurt myself/fall trying to avoid one)…but i haven’t been able to successfully unhook myself from it in the moment. i’m gonna work on developing my anchor. thanks for the tip, kate.

following an intuitive nudge that assures me that i can learn a lot from kate, and from the experience of being in community with others on the self healing path.

hi, kate! hi, collective! my name is sarah. my body was diagnosed with ms in 2014. since thst time, i’ve been on an epic adventure that has led me into the throes of addiction, the peaks and valleys of medication trials, and a handful of relational patterns that (i can see now!) were all just manifestations of my deepest childhood wounds. now, here i am…on an awakening path for the ages! where my body is, once again, manifesting some deep, patterned stuff…which, at the moment, looks a lot like bilateral drop foot, difficulty with concentration, fatigue, and a neurogenic bladder. i’m here to learn, from kate and from you all, what i’m not able to see for myself. to unearth, embrace, and reconfigure the core beliefs that are trying to get my attention. and to befriend my nervous system, once and for all. i look forward to hearing more about your journey and why you’re here. sending love you way! thanks for finding this space, kate. sarah