I can relate with a lot of what you are saying. The feelings that we'll up when I am angry, the cold sweat, the clammy hands, my heart races and then pounds. Sometimes it is like an outer body experience. I get this warm, blood draining rush through my body. This all usually happens when the hurt comes from people I love. Then the anger comes because how could someone who claims to love me do something to hurt me so deeply. In all honesty, I think it has more to do with me and how I process, than how the person intended for me to feel. By this point though I am so hurt that most times I don't want to talk a out things, but then depending on the feeling, I may decide to want to alk about it right then. When the other party doesn't want to confront things head on, I get hurt by that then too. Wow, I sound like a mess.

For me the resistance pushes me into that flight mode for as long as I can handle it. Until it no longer becomes flight and then becomes fight. I like how you said pushing it down. I find for me, for too long that was my "m.o." until I found it wasn't working anymore. Do I still do it, of course. I am finding I do it a lot less than I used to, which in turn causes me to face my emotions sooner than later. I have found talking out the emotions I am feeling, helps me to cope with what is going on. However, I do find that I pick and choose which emotions I do this with. As well as, which people.

I wonder if time also plays a factor in it becoming something else. For instance if you are in a relationship for so long and the experiences and situations that take place in that time, does it become complacency? Almost as if becoming used to the things that hurt.

Emotions for me can be intense and definitely driven by cutrent circumstances and even prior experiences. Negative emotions I can generally feel building up inside until it feels like I might explode.

For me, one major emotion is love. It has allowed me to see people differently. It has also allowed me to forgive things that I don't think I would normally forgive.