Even with questioning myself during DTTF I can't get rid of the trauma with several questioning steps.

It is not that we are victims. Forget the victimisation by losers. Be a winner because you ARE a winner in yourself. TURN IT OUT IN PEACE! Hehehe, unavoidable question in that context: Is Andrew Tate a winner, and how strong is he in himself? I am very keen on reading your views!

Hey everyone, I haven't been on here for a while and it's been an up and down time recently. The bad... well I was recently with no warning made redundant from my pretty good sales position just over a month ago. This wasn't down to anything I had done it was just business as the sales team was all let go of. So that was a gut punch. Now onto the not just good but very good! After asking in the group sometime ago and asking both Ryan and Jordan specially about the steps they took to becoming a hypnotherapist (Thanks by the way guys!) I bit the bullet! I found somewhere that is somewhat local to me where I can do the course in person. I know now we can do a lot of things online and it's just as good (I did a few good courses myself like this) however I felt this needed an in person type learning. I talked to the tutor and looked at the modules of the course. They all sound awesome, there's even a section on setting up a business after you know what you are doing of course. The class will begin in September this year and take place in York if all the spots get filled. Which shouldn't be an issue as they only do smaller classes which is good. I already have some idea of hypnosis and how it works thanks to Ryan and the community/content. I did train to be a counsellor years ago and couldn't go along with it as I didn't belive the methods were effective enough to learn it at degree level and get in all that student debt. I feel like everything is coming around full circle as i wouldnt of discovered hypnosis if i had not made that decision years ago. This kind of proves that if you are looking for answers you will eventually find them as everyone around me thought I made a terrible mistake not pursuing counselling at the time. But I knew in my gut it wasn't right for me. Even though being unemployed at the moment sucks, this too shall pass. So if you are struggling and seem a bit lost keep pushing forward. You are already further along than most just being in here!

If you saw my post yesterday, this weekend hasn’t been great with family. Today I made the deduction to confront my dad and set a boundary with him. I told him I was not okay with lashing out at me with anger and if he disrespects me in future I will not put up with it. Expectedly, he didn’t take it well. He pretty justified his behavior by saying he’s teaching me how not to be lazy and careless and he feels that I have bad intentions when I make mistakes. As he was arguing, I stayed calm and I did not let him make me feel less about myself. I stood my ground. I don’t know what the result of this will be but I hope there’s a positive change. Thank you Ryan for the webinar last night; the parts on deflection and projection were very relevant here.

It was nice seeing family members I haven’t seen in over a year. But seeing a few others made me remember why I’ve been gone for so long. To be honest my self-esteem has taken a hit since last Thursday. I’m just tired of being treated poorly by people I love. I’ll be gone by Thursday but I know something has to change.