I have spent the last 8 hours (at least) beating myself up for not being more productive today. For not getting more done. For being lazy. But the fact of the matter is, I have been completely distracted. I called the vet first thing this morning because late in the day yesterday I found a lump on Puck's side. It is not insignificant. I have been with this veterinary clinic for more than 20 years and they have always been very responsive. Today, not so much. I was on call, waiting the whole day to run him over there to find out everything is ok (crossed fingers). Maybe doing my best today was not about powering through. It was not about getting it all done and making the changes I need to. Maybe today the magick was petting my cat, making sure he is not in pain, monitoring his appetite and energy and just being. I find it difficult to ever give myself that grace, but I do today because right now I am scared, I am feeling helpless and the most important thing in my life is a soul that only has me to care for him. Puck Yeah

It's too late for breakfast but too early for lunch and I am hungry now. I am throwing decorum to the wind and going all helter skelter on mealtimes today.

I am not a big believer in the whole theory about different timelines. I do find the physicist Lee Smolin's Principle of Precedence to be pretty plausible to explain why we remember things differently than they appear now - along with a healthy understanding of how fallible memory really can be. However, something really odd happened today. I was looking at my natal chart and had always put down 1:50 PM as my time of birth. Today, though, I started having doubts about the time being correct. I decided to go check my birth certificate. By the time I got to my office, I decided that I didn't want to dig through the massive personal file I have if I didn't have to, so I thought - well, I will check my baby book because I know right where that is. I haven't looked at it in years because only the first few pages had been filled out. It always amused me as I figured my mom was just over it by the time she got to me, so she didn't bother. I figured, what the heck, she might have filled in the birth stuff because that would have been at the beginning when enthusiasm was high, so if it were in there, it would be in those first couple of filled out pages. So I grabbed it and started looking through to find the entry. And then kept flipping. I though - there were a few more pages than I remembered. And I kept flipping. On and on. The first 5 years of my life documented. Meticulously. All the milestones. and the pictures! Birthdays, Christmases, random summer days. Then there were receipts for vaccinations, locks of hair and so much more. (Also, I would just like to point out for the record that I was ahead of the average development wise since the very beginning). You could have knocked me over with a feather. The reason I never looked at it was because I knew there was so very little in there, so why bother? But there it all was. Even more puzzling was all the pictures of me that I have never seen before. Surely I would have looked at the pictures when I brought the book home from one of the many great migrations of stuff from her house to mine.

OK, folks - I really want to be supportive of everyone in my community but I keep losing track of who is doing what when. I love to attend as many live sessions as I can (especially the spiritual ones) so let me know when you are doing your thing and I will do my best to show up and be part of your thing! @Alli Gatlin @Soph Newman @Jill Hart @Bo McCoy @Stephanie Pick - I think I have all your things on my calendar, but if I am regularly missing something, let me know. For everyone else - let me know what you have going in your communities! I want to do all the things! Also, I want to start a magickal Masterminf/Q & A to talk magick live session every week. This will be on Zoom and not recorded. Tuesday is my least busy day, so I am thinking about doing it then. Let me know below what time works best for you. I have definitely been loving doing the live tutorials over on Substack - this Thursday will be about building crystal grids and I can't wait. If you have any suggestions for future live sessions, please let me know! Let me know below what works for you, or add a comment to let me know more specifically.

So - I am going to say bot on this one - what do you all think?