@Ngozi Obanye totally agree. some people need someone to kick them in the ass to stay on track and i have had people in the past ask me to do that for them. after a few days of the bsand whining and bitching and moaning i told them forget it. don't waste my time. prime example, i spent months writing a script that was supposed to be a collaboration, the one who came up w/a short film idea that i fleshed out into a feature. not an easy task as i had to read a lot and research what i didn't know. this was before AI was available and almost every single f-ing time i went down to his house to write, he either wasn't in the mood or not even there. and when we sat down to write it was jsut a waste of time as he would insist on s@%t that satisfied his "psychic connection" of the two main characters and really did nothing to further the story. after half assed contributions to the first 1/2 of the first act i just told him forget it, i'll finish it on my own. so i completed the last 5/6 of the script myself and presented it to him, he made two tiny changes and loved the final product. i did not ask for payment as we had embarked on a gentleman's agreement to make movies together where i committed to writing 6 of his scripts for him and this was the first one. he was responsible for storyboarding the script and even then he needed me to babysit him. i went w/him to a smoky pub breathing in the stink while he tried to find his muse. really this is the kind of immature velcro i can't do this unless you keep me on track mentality i was up against. i told him i kept my word and turned in a great script that we had started casting for as we had the leads in place already. i don't care what you do, i'm done. needless to say, he never did the storyboards but a few months later had the audacity to call me and demand that i change the script that i wrote into a black comedy w/out so much as a thank you or even justification as to why i should do his bidding, for free again. i told him if you want a black comedy, write it yourself cause i already wrote you the script. before he decided to steal money from me he pitched me his second movie idea complete w/extensive notes and storyline. i read it, didn't feel that i had anything to add to it as it was basically written and all he had to do was put those index cards int script format and told him i was going to pass on this and he got his hackles up and was upset that i didn't care about his story. i should mention that i had written some short scripts for him based on his ideas as well. so he pouts and months late calls me to pitch me another idea that i should write for him. and again, i hated the premise and felt i ha nothing to contribute to it nor did i want to waste my time on it and told him to pick another one of the ideas we talked about but he was insistent and deminded that i should write this for him. i told him no. to this day, he still has no projects to shoot because i wisely cut him out of my life after he stole from me. and you should know that i was his "big brother" as he called me as i was the one who was always there for him in all hours and helped him through his anxiety attacks, his self doubts, his shortages in making rent, the list goes on. i was basically his lifeline to maintaining his sanity. i missed out on a lot of visits from my niece and nephews when they came over to visit their grandparents when they were youngsters to counsel him through his latest crisis. but yeah , i tend to ramble, hahaha! my point is i am not a rah rah, c'mon you can do it kind of guy who will sugarcoat my opinion to save your feelings. if you can't handle it don't ask me. i am the kind who will hold you accountable and ask why you didn't follow through and if you don't honour your word to others don't bitch and moan about it happening to you. so that is why i live by the sword and die by the sword and only give my word sparingly as it has to be earned. thanks for sloshing to the bitter end.

@Dr Minister Coach Charlie Wheaton i find that it's more of a matter of finding a way to live up to your word and staying on course when the going gets tough. that's when the challenges test your mettle. it's not easy. i'd love to have mentors where i can pick their brains but i'm usually the one that others come to for advice so that's why i thought i might do well w/coaching, i've had to take a huge step back as things have changed and this is my first log in in months. but yeah, whatever it is that works for you, keep at it and don't try and reinvent the wheel unless that is your goal.

I take responsibility for everything in my life. i am on day 139 - day 151. i am stepping back as something extremely demoralizing happened that i am having to process, no it doesn't involve a woman, take care all and i will check in when i can. let's go get'em!

I take responsibility for everything in my life. i am on day 152 - day 155

i literally had my prayers answered to devastating effect and now am suffering from PTSD as in patrick the stupidest dickhead. as a result i am taking a step back from all but necessities. will check in biweekly most likely. take care all. till next time!

@Ngozi Obanye i write every night as the last thing before lights out, no matter how long it takes me. it ain't done till i put pen away. i have a box full of paper that i have written in and another scattered box of other written material and scraps of stuff and notes on tablets and notepads and the list goes on. sometimes i even surprise myself how much i have written over the last 43 years of my life. taking a step back so take care until next time. see above reply

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