We had a set back that began last weekend after what I thought was a good 4hr visit. There was a moment last week when I told him that I didn’t mind waiting because I believed God told me he would come home one day. He didn’t get upset straightaway but after about 30 minutes he began to share something that happened at the place he was staying. It’s uncomfortable there and they have been undermining my marriage for years. Anyway, he didn’t speak to me all week and it was a hard week for me emotionally. At every turn the enemy has come against me and my perform at work is beginning to suffer. I didn’t sleep well this week and it’s a heavy traveling week for me and I’m late on my car note. Just so many things. So I sent him a message tonight asking if he would be able to fix the lawnmower this weekend. He said yes and then came right over. The text was kind and that was encouraging. But then after he fixed the tire and we sat in the rockers I asked if there was something on his mind and he told me he don’t like that I tried to control him last week by telling him what he was going to do. I apologized and said I shouldn’t have said it and I wouldn’t do it again but he got up and began to leave. I asked why and he said angrily that I wasn’t going to do that to him again and left. I fell apart, again. I’m so sad. My heart hurts bad. I still can’t believe all this is happening.