I have been feeling lots of dissociation and derealization for the last couple of weeks. I know Abba is sustaining me but it’s kind of discouraging me this morning. This morning I am having attacks come at me that something is wrong with my body. Which is something I can tend to worry about…what’s going on with my physical body… I know I am healthy and my healthy body is responding to unhealthy things in my circumstances. It gets harder and harder to endure through all this when there’s nothing I can do to “change” how I feel because I really need to be in a new location. Only God can make that happen for me due to how impossible that is in this economy and at this time. I feel stuck but I know I am being held. I feel a heaviness on my heart today that feels so crushing. Oh and not to mention how HUMID it is in Ontario right now…that crap alone puts me in a bad mood. Last night it was 90% humidity. I’m like 🤮 I need the SNOW ❄️ Anyway…thank you in advance for praying for me ♥️

Wow. So I just had the worst period cramps I’ve had in probably a year and a half almost 2 years. They were so painful and caused me to feel very sick…I even threw up which I NEVER do. I hate that feeling so much. I know I’m not doing well if I throw up. I had to call my Mom and ask her to come home early from work because I couldn’t walk or hardly talk due to the pain. This doesn’t happen to me often but when it does I typically feel better by the evening. I still feel just awful. It’s very discouraging. My parents are supposed to be gone for the majority of the next two days too and it stresses me out thinking about being alone feeling like this. I am just feeling very defeated, discouraged, and annoyed this evening. Lots of heavy feelings and thoughts are hitting me as I have been bed bound all day. Prayers are greatly appreciated ♥️

We are all going through SOMETHING. Feel free to comment below and ask for prayer. If you see someone needing prayer or encouragement. Don't hesitate to pray for them or send encouragement their way. <3 "Carry one another’s burdens and in this way you will fulfill the requirements of the law of Christ [that is, the law of Christian love]." Galatians 6:2 (AMP)

I just ordered a new Bible today and there is something in the cover of the Bible. This is just a zondervan thin line NIV Bible…it’s freaking me out. It feels like I should be able to click whatever this device is in the cover. I want to open the Bible cover up and see what’s inside but I feel really off about that. I am on my way to the police station soon because I feel like I need to report it. Just not sure if you guys have seen anything like this before❓