Sorry just opening up a little here! For me the last 18 months have been hell not just on myself but the damage I caused to my family. Since my back injury its been a drastic change of career and steered my in a direction that I didn’t want to go, after over 20 years of graft. After years of ill treatment of pain management and medication, led to addiction and depression. I succumb to alcohol unfortunately, on occasions to fill a huge void that was missing and to numb pain, so Much physical and mental pain! It is a shock how much damage alcohol can do in a short space of time. I dont wake up and need a drink, or alcohol to function in anyway. Its those urges every now and then (can go weeks without it) then get those down days and alcohol comes in. Just to try to forget for a few hours and seem “happy”! But this was self destruction! Its definitely not the way forward, I have actually attended a few AA meetings which if I’m honest frightened the life out of me. So for me, its leaving the old me behind, reconnect with my family and loved ones. Be kind to myself and slow down, as we are doing ok! Focus on the can do’s and not the cant do’s! F**k you pain! No more lying, no more hiding/feeling sorry for myself OWN IT