Thank you for bringing so much clarity . I have been in this situation for years , trying different treatments ( with supplements-lucky me ) but nothing worked. I didn’t know that leaving in an abusive relationship keep me in this state . Now , although I am aware of it I still can’t get out . Yes , I feel stuck and don’t know how to change this . I still am in the same relationship , no so stressful as before but far away from feeling safe and loved. Please help

As I personally perceive it as emotional abuse , not many might perceive it this way . I blamed myself many years for being weak , not smart enough etc and tried to change and understand the other person’s perspective and drive behind their harsh words . Eventually I came to the conclusion that it doesn’t matter how I was or became. it matters that everyone deserves respect , acceptance and acknowledgment. I blame myself for not knowing what I know now and didn’t leave early . All my health issues I believe were related to the feelings I had , from anger to disappointment, sadness to hate . I want a better life, just don’t know where to start and how to move forward in a safe way