I believe we had felt a lot of the same ways at times. I just watched day three and those are my exact mask that I wore. Mine also started as people pleasing, then trying to control the crazy, chaotic situation around me that was my life and then as life continued this led into caretaking. Exhausting to say the least. You sound very creative and a lovely person. A very generous person and I believe one that gives her all to everyone but yourself. At least that is how my senerio went. But at 66 I found out I had ADHD all my life which is at least allowing me to see so much of why I did so many things the way I did them. So now I am beginning to give my self a little self care and some breaks when I do so many of the wacky things I find myself doing...lol I hope you are giving yourself some kindness and self care...I think you really deserve that for all you have done for others. Take Care Linda