Shrinking, avoidance, fear, inability to communicate can all be parts of the ego also. I need to use the tools I've learned are at my disposal sooner. Need to tighten the gaps. Every day is opportunity and a battlefield.
I am learning that my body often knows drift is rising before my mind names it clearly. Sensations can become super powers when they alert me early enough to return instead of react. Awareness is not the finish line, but it is the doorway back to obedience.