Sorry this one is so long today, but there was quiet a bit to share… today i rejoiced and was glad in the day the lord had made!

BREAK THE OLD MAN FRAME: The old man in me built useful skills from fear, insecurity, and self-hate—growth on the outside, weakness on the inside. FEEL: I feel sadness. Heaviness on my heart. I lead others with love and passion, yet when it comes to my own growth, I default to driving myself with anger and self-hate. It works, but it’s not God’s way. FACE: Self-hate has no place in my purpose. It keeps me from becoming a pure, steady blue flame before my Heavenly Father. FORGE: I will daily remember the Lord’s sacrifice—His suffering born from love and compassion. From now on, I’ll sharpen my abilities for His glory, fueled by gratitude, not hatred. I will endure in service, not in self-hate.

From my heart to yours. This is how we fight our battles PLEASE READ……This past weekend we as a family went to our annual family property called black bear, it’s special because every year during Thanksgiving and new years the whole family gathers and we enjoy each others company. This year was extra special because I got to be with my family. Most of you don’t know but Wednesday I got invited back home. Please ask for the whole story. I’ve been separated from them for 9 months due to an incident that culminated from unhealth and disfunction on my part, this has been my mountain from pit to peak. As thankful as I am to be back this trip the enemy intruded my thoughts with the lie that my wife’s lack of attention just on the camping trip was intentional and that affirmed rejection. IDDRR has helped me because that’s a lie! My wife loves me, is over whelmed often with the kids and is always pulled in a thousand directions, if I we’re to take my feelings personal and share that I feel rejected after finally being able to come home, after her choosing me and inviting me back and for trusting the Lord with our future that would have been the wrong thing and actually would have affirmed her “it” in life of never being enough. Revelation also is that this “feeling” of rejection is the enemy’s tactic to steal my joy which in the Lord is unconditional and supposed to be my strength. I identified this, rejected it, replaced it with the truth and reality of all that we’ve gone through and replaced it with Thankfulness. We actually had a great trip and I’m writing this as we speak in my own home as everyone’s asleep. I’m not preaching or teaching brothers, this group is forging in us the tools necessary, to keep our families together. John 10:10 the enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy but I have come that you have life and life abundantly. I surrender rejection.🏳️