Gianni, you're clearly ambitious and focused, I'm assuming you aren't the type of 19 year old to constantly chase girls and drink all the time? Young men who are just living in full blown hedonism, or an adult who now dislikes his job but had loads of fun in their 20s will tell you: "Your 20s are the best years of your life" If you are serious about your life, I think objectively, your early 20s will be the hardest years of your life. Often in our early 20s when taking things seriously we have little achievements, we aren't respected, no girlfriend/ wife, no meaningful career. But part of gratitude is being grateful for the opportunities you've been blessed with: The opportunity to build your physique. The opportunity to build a skillset in an industry you love. The opportunity to improve your sleep, diet, health and improve how you feel simply on a biological level day-to-day giving you more energy. The opportunity to one day have a nice house, beautiful wife, career that you love. I think what you need to do is find out for yourself what you would genuinely find purpose and fulfilment in doing as a career. I would recommend watching this below, and see the image I've attached. https://youtu.be/flBuEEenQRg?is=RjwwGKLQJu9Ib06I To get to the life you want you have to use your early 20s to work towards it and build your foundations