@Dani Rosenblad James I will start tomorrow, unfortunately a bit sick and still needing to do a few other things.

@Dani Rosenblad James Bit late, but here it is. -------------------- Work day’s over, another chaotic drive back home. As I enter through the front door, I am greeted by the hum of machinery, bringing the comfortable warmth all across the house. Taking off my shoes, entering the living being hit with the obvious smell that one of the enclosures needs some cleansing attention. I see the culprit of said smell, coming out of his hiding hole, looking at what the ruckus is. I put on the coffeemaker and a few minutes later, the click of the machine hints at its successful completion of another pot of the glorious brew. I grab a cup, sit down on the couch and get settled for a little bit of R&R, before my younger brother comes home and the peaceful silence is no more. -------------------- Reflect: Which sense do you naturally lean on the most? I feel like sound is the one I lean most too. Or well, it seems to be the one that I can identify the most different things with. The flip side, my smell is definitely worst. I however always use all of my senses in conjunction. Trying to just sense the world around me as much as possible (Note that this does overload me in certain situations, because that natural filter that we learn as a kid, isnt working well.)

@Dani Rosenblad James I can just add a redacted version of my own experience to this, which was a long road. Though, I could also write it in a more "instant" style 🤔Anyways: ---- And then that last text came. “I need some time to myself.”. The next few days passed slowly. Mentally racing, wondering. Did I do something wrong? Surely I didnt. What happened? And so on. Nights were even longer, the mind never still. The body couldn't relax. Continuously fidgeting and being tired. Time went on, the silence remained. The questioning turned into self-blame. Always kicking and gnawing away. Tiredness slowly turned into exhaustion. No energy to do anything. Mood had been low all throughout. Tears came in waves, but were always on the horizon. The mind continued its racing, creating new idea’s, what if this positive thing happened, what then. What if this negative thing happened, what then? And then the “holy shit I need help” what-if came. Driving down the highway. Seeing the protective railing. What if… I lost control right now? Would anyone care, I certainly didn't. Months later that same road, as well as the reflection in the mirror, looked a lot more beautiful. ---- Reflection: Emotions don't necessarily happen physically. There's a lot more going on internally, that can show physically, and these processes are hard to describe.

Hello there stranger, How have you been this past while? I'm writing this letter, to tell you, you did well. You’ve always had this head, full of thoughts and ideas. Seeing something, thinking of all the other possibilities that might have happened, how people could have responded and what effect this might’ve had. The past, almost a year now, has been rough. You’ve had a lot to deal with and a lot of time to reconnect with yourself. Losing old habits, gaining new habits. The ability to prioritize and focus on what you find more important. Sure there’s times where you fall down, but that’s normal! Everyone has ups and downs and you know damn well the downs now, aren’t as bad as they’ve been at the start. You’ve had thoughts of starting to write, but never actually started. With this letter, today(5-11-2025) is that starting day. So write down all the thoughts, no matter how incoherent they sometimes get and get that novel going. Whether it ends up being fantasy, sci-fi, etc. It doesn't matter, because time will tell as you write it. The start is rough, but it gets easier with every step you take. So get those creative juices flowing again! Much love and godspeed, Your old self. ------------------------ So the emotion that drives me, is curiosity. To wonder and see what happens at the end of the process. Will my mind be satisfied or will it feel empowered and even more curious? Time will tell.

Aaaaaaaaah! Panic time?

@Dani Rosenblad James Naaah. Its why i put the questionmark there.

Hi hello. Its been a while since I last ventured onto skool. Ive been busy slowly getting out of my burnout. Now needing to prioritize some things like my coaching education (Currently adds a bit of stress, because I still need a extra client). While I'd started writing, I also dropped it again, as my energy and concentration ended up all over the place. But like Dani also mentioned, I started the world and character building, so its easy to spend a few minutes here and there to add to that. So the pace is very very slow. But still moving, a little bit at the time.

@Dani Rosenblad James Thanks! Not there yet, but slowly moving forward