Week 1 is done. All seven days. I've been posting these one at a time, but I wanted to put the whole first week together in one place, cover and all. This is the "Feel" week of the challenge I'm building, "I Don't Know Her Yet," and I didn't just write it, I walked through every single day of it myself first. Seven days of going all the way in. The truth I never said out loud. The feelings I used to bury. The letter I'll never send. The little girl I was before any of it. The night everything changed. Everything I lost. And finally, everything that survived. I'm not going to lie, some of these days took everything out of me. But I feel lighter than I have in a long time. And I understand my own story so much deeper now that I've actually seen it on paper. The full Week 1 is attached if you want to read it. Thank you for walking this with me. Week 2 is coming. Song for Day 7-Still Rising: https://open.spotify.com/track/2lnlessxob7MdLmEXDAvUu?si=df587f9d593b438e Thank you, Ravyn

Day 1 : I’M FINALLY LOOKING OUT FOR JUST ME !!!! Day 2: Stop acting like it doesn’t bother me because it does , I don’t want to give up but I have the following emotions to deal with ; LOVE , JOY , PEACE , TRUST , FRUSTRATION , LONELINESS !!!! Day 3: THE LETTER THAT NOBODY IS SUPPOSED TO READ ; I can’t stop thinking about how out of all the relationships I’ve had, no one could touch my heart the way you did. We’ve known each other almost our entire lives, and when we finally decided to take that step towards making a real relationship out of our friendship, it was amazing. Then I remember noticing how there were times of frustration when I had to keep telling you to stop with the flirtation . I wasn’t even doing that all the times you saw me perform on stage , and even though I can’t say you would have cheated but it definitely pissed me off. Then of course the denial and playing stupid like the “ What, I just thought he looked like someone I know “ , yet you had that look like you wanted to take them home at least once . Sometimes I would ask “ You want to sleep with him ? , go ahead hook up with him if you want him that bad.” It was just that stupid to me and I really think that was because we were so close and at times think you forgot that we are now more than just friends , and so now you need to let me know if it’s better to go back to being friends. Then of course you would immediately say “ Oh your not going anywhere and definitely not getting rid of me. “ !!! The laughter, the tears, the great times and a few bad times, but when we finally realized that we had to discuss how we are going to raise the kids if we get married being that we both had two different ways of accepting what the Bible had to say and what we want our kids to believe. We knew we had to make that decision to say goodbye to each other. It was enough for us to realize the unhealthy tug of war with how to teach our kids to worship and our unhappiness with each other’s beliefs that would really be unfair to the kids, and so we chose the right thing, realizing it was for the best. However it still hurts to this day and yes I still miss you and think about you all the time .

The week they stop running. @Tiffany Gaines

I’m turning in a redo of Week 1 of my 30-day challenge, titled The Perspective Project After submitting what I thought was Day 16, I got clarity from @Tiffany Gaines in last nights live (thank you so much, Coach 🙏) and decided to redo the entire week. I shifted the focus from dumping my own experiences to creating something that could help someone else reach the ideology of holding both truths at the same time thru self reflection because Clarity isn’t found by choosing one side, it’s found by learning to hold both 🫂🧘‍♀️🎭 Week One is NOTICE 👀 I worked NON-STOP on this since last night and I’m MUCH happier with where it landed 🙏 As always, comments, feedback, and critiques are very welcome 😆💕‼️ Thank you again, Tiffany, for the guidance. I’m forever grateful to be growing in this space with all of you 🫂💕🙏🙌☺️‼️💕

day 8 @Tiffany Gaines