something i feel powerless over, im my experience when i lie down too rest and sleep allot of the time, my inner world is full of sensations and "movement" and energy , it feels as if im processing and digesting information , and it all happens outside of conscious control, il hear the words of others that im in relation with rise within my consciousness, and its almost like theres an internal dialog going on where everything is processing and at times mirroring within, ive also felt powerless over the mental chatter in my mind and the way i can get caught up in my own loops and spirals, and the way i seem too always be in a constant state of process, i feel powerless over a part of my experience where i seem too be constantly changing and swapping between different versions of my self , one which il call my birth self and another which seems to maybe be connected to something more universal , it brings out different parts of my identity and changes the experience of how i feel in my body and the world, theres changes of swapping between these different parts of mysef very often and it leaves me feeling a bit out of control and uncertain

Humility through humiliation - For me, this means I'm human, and all ranges of feeling are on the table. It is realizing I am both perfect and imperfect simultaneously. I am perfect in God's eyes but imperfect in my relationship with God, and with others. I am finding that I am only really free when I'm able to be seen as imperfect, even when my intention was to be seen as managing my life well. My self image is so adept at being in control. My self imagine is so used to holding the space. My self image is so used to leading. But what happens when I'm the one being lead? When I'm surrendered, and not in control? When someone else is holding the mirror and I can't hide from myself? This is where I choose to meet myself in humility. It will take more layers of humiliation for me to be whole, but I consciously choose to accept that fate. @Mena Hajek @Nikki M @Becca Sweeting @Betsabe Torres @Josh Dorigo @Samantha Olague @Vicky L. @Aurora Amelia