@Anthony Patierno Yes, but I have had a hard time staying in the flow state for entire matches, it comes and goes usually during high intensity situations, but dissipates so I try to not rely on the flow

You were pretty accurate with the analysis of lack of joy when playing. I do love doing my routines and getting better, but it does become difficult for me to live in the moment. When it comes to the flow state and getting into the moment usually high-pressure situations, but there is one on one high effort, saves or intense communication with my team snapped me into into that state allowing me to almost effortlessly do the things I need to do. On the other hand, low intensity, games and low action, usually take me out of it, requiring me to put a lot more effort and thought into my actions throughout the match When it comes to teammates and peer interaction. I am the assigned leader for the U17 and U19 groups here, but I do have limited interaction with my peers because I am in college student at 16 not on the same schooling system as the rest of them. This doesn’t affect my relationships with them but does affect the time I spend with them throughout the day however they all generally respect me and listen to me and I do have good relationships with all of them.