Thanks bro! I think it’ll be posted tonight… not 100% sure

Bro I know EXACTLY what you’re talking about. This phase is brutal. But I’m gonna be real with you… it’s not sabotage. It just feels like that because now you actually understand what’s going on. Before, you were just playing. No overthinking, no pressure, no expectations. Now you see everything… so every loss hits harder and feels more “unfair”. And the whole “my hands don’t hold when it matters” thing… that’s just your brain remembering the painful ones. You’re not remembering all the normal spots where nothing crazy happens. Also be careful with the “I was winning more when I was worse” thought. That’s a trap. You were probably just running better and not noticing your mistakes. What’s really happening is you got better at the game faster than you got better mentally. So now you: play better → feel worse → question everything That’s the phase. If you don’t get control of that part, that’s when people start forcing things and actually make it worse. You’re not stuck bro, you’re just uncomfortable. Big difference. Don’t give up brother. This is where breakthroughs happen!!

First, you must completely separate poker from other forms of gambling. Second, I can tell you from experience that you must, at all costs, refrain from placing that first bet (outside of poker). I can’t tell you have many times that I told myself that I was only gonna play $20 in a slot machine, or 30 minutes at a blackjack table… only to go completely off the deep end. Casino games are designed to fleece you. That’s the whole point. Avoiding the first bet is the only true line of defense. Hope this helps!

This is real right here. Playing with money you can’t afford to lose and then trying to fix it in the pits… that’s a brutal cycle. I’ve been there too. It never actually solves the problem, it just digs the hole deeper. The fact you can clearly see it and say it out loud like this is a big step. Most people just keep convincing themselves the next session will fix everything. What you said about building a separate bankroll is everything. Once poker money and life money are mixed, it’s almost impossible to make good decisions. And the pit thing is huge too. That’s not even gambling for fun, that’s pressure gambling. Completely different mindset and it almost always ends bad. Locking in on your finances first and then building a proper roll is the right move. That’s how you actually give yourself a real shot instead of constantly playing from behind. Appreciate you sharing this. This is exactly what the group is for.

@Billy Perez glad to have you buddy! Being there for other people will also help with your accountability. Practicing what we preach ya know!

Bro I’m gonna be real with you… this isn’t a poker problem, it’s a gambling problem. And I know exactly what you mean when you say “I thought I fixed it.” That’s the trap. You feel in control again, you build something up… and then one moment of tilt wipes everything. The 3 months without roulette? That’s actually proof you can control it. But you didn’t remove it, you just paused it… so when the emotions hit, you went right back. That 3-minute punt didn’t happen because you’re dumb. It happened because you had easy access and no barrier between feeling tilted and clicking spin. So here’s the real question — what are you gonna do differently this time? Because if nothing changes, this will 100% happen again. Not “maybe”… it will. You need to put something in place that protects you from yourself in that exact moment: Self-exclude from roulette sites Block access if you have to Don’t keep money on platforms where you can instantly punt it Make it HARD to make that mistake again. And one more thing… You’re 22, living at home, no major responsibilities… this is actually the BEST time in your life to fix this before it gets way more expensive later. You’re not stuck. You’re just repeating a pattern. Break the access → you break the cycle.