I'll be honest mate, I'm at the same place as you! Trying to build something too and like you have days where I'm full of belief and really positive, then the next day question everything, just think I'll never make anything of myself and I'm bound for a life of working and having someone else own my arse and being a slave to the money! I've thought shall I just accept it, get my head down for 20 years, save and retire early! But how do you save these days when we're constantly ripped off and pay through the nose for everything! Working til I die really scares me, that isn't what life is about, it's a short journey and we need to try and be as happy as we can! Another reason for wanting to build something of my own is all this ongoing with my health! Currently having all the tests for chrons disease! Off work because of it and basically got a month to get a diagnosis or my employer will finish me on sickness capability! Then the question is, will I get another job with these issues?! Wouldn't be as much pressure if I didn't have kids! Getting out of the UK is a must for us!