Happiness within the Pain
- A short story of todays challenge; So a few days ago I shared a video of Legendary Rodney Mullen, the godfather of street skating. He was talking about living in chronic pain but at the same time feeling the pull and love of his sport make him essentially overcome the pain with pure passion and love for skateboarding. As most people know now with all my endless complaints, my ankles are absolutely f**ked.. But with his passionate words echoing in my mind, I tried pushing thru the initial pain doing this challenge today. Very close to giving up after just a few attempts. But I held on and kept trying and kinda โdeluludโ my pain away which sort off worked better than expected. After like 15 attempts trying this, sweating like crazy wearing non-stretchy jeans of all things and fatigue setting inโฆ I thought back to why I train Parkour at all, to me, itโs was always meant to be fun. My attitude changed and my entire atmosphere too. It was a great feeling and a nostalgic one. Each new attempt now brought me more and more joy, regardless of how it actually went, some to the side, another too slow, one too quick, ouch, staight on the heelโฆ Every fibre in my body was vibrating with happiness, I was finally moving againโฆ And in that next moment, I felt something so profoundโฆ โwait a minuteโฆ I can do this? Is my body actually allowing me to do this?โ โYouโre not gonna give up like always?โ โYouโre not gonna back out as usual?โ โWait.. even my mind is telling me itโs okay?โ The feeling was evergreen and all puzzle pieces aligned within me and I succeeded that very next attempt. And Brodie Pawson, like a truly iconic Parkour Moment, completed the challenge on his very next attempt, classic I couldnโt believe it, I just did something that had more or less solidified itself as โimpossibleโ for me in my current state. Iโll be real, the amount of self doubt thatโs been expanding and replicating itself like a cancer the last probably 4 years of my life has been, ehm, letโs just say, overwhelming at timesโฆ