I’m an entrepreneur and recently started a part time job. I have always been a night owl and yup have worked into the wee hours of the morning. I end up not getting enough sleep and I’ve nevvvverrrr been a morning person; however, I have changed my self talk now that I have to get up and go to an office 3-4 times a week and have an hour drive. I am going to improve my evening & morning routines starting tonight! Phone in another room, chilling out, reading and preparing for a great sleep so I can take time in the morning and not be as chaotic.

I just realized and acknowledged that my “issue” with receiving started much younger than I thought! I was a child and assumed a helper, protector & leader role very early on which inadvertently led to me stuffing my needs, putting everyone else’s needs ahead of mine and forgetting, ignoring or not realizing Ginny’s my own. I was the strong one who appeared to never need anything. I made a comment to a friend one day and she said “I never even think of asking if you’re okay.” Wowww! That said a lot. I’m working on this!

Something that became very clear to me today was that I am definitely not as kind to myself as I thought I was. I get really close to completion or being seen and his big loud mouth starts chiming in and creates anxiety, causing doubt, self-deprecation and ultimately freezes my progress. Yikes.

Not quite there yet. Was up later than normal ( coz I stayed up way late.. but was a special one so ok). Drank water ✅ stretched & moved ✅ sunlights ✅ high protein breakfast ✅

I am encouraging myself by making a start with taking just 2 of Jim's good recommendations for evening and morning, to help myself get a win. Evening will be at least a 10 minute journal. Dim lights, and lie down. (ok is that 3 steps? It'll do). Morning: get up, drink 2 glasses water, and go outside for 5 minutes of daylight. I know more than 5 minutes was recommended. But this is going to be a start for me, something I feel is doable. Let's see what happens. This evening I did a third of the open loop. That's something. Tomorrow, I aim to do the next 2 steps.