I’m sitting here getting treatment #14 and journaling/ reflecting on my own Magician House heading into this month. Two reflections I’m sitting with I want to share with the group. First, for some general accountability (and to put it out into the Universe). In order for this season to be the success I want it to be these are the requirements of me: - Perfect Day (so good in off season, historically not so in season) - Discipline on schedule (I know this will equal more freedom and I need to schedule myself first into this madness for the sake of resiliency and relationships) - Strong communication (Sunday night check-ins and regular weekly staff and client project check-ins. Monthly newsletter continued commitment - let me know if any of you want to be added to my marketing list) - Commitment to follow-through. (This is in regards to design/ proposal turn around and commission work- it’s gets slowed down by me) - Mindfulness/ Presence (meditation is key- in a good rhythm now and love the emotional regulation and extra state of awareness it provides) - Proper daily preparation. (This is all about scheduling the time at the end of each day to prepare for the next one to prevent some of the unnecessary extra chaos) Second, heading into Magician- finances has bubbled to the top for me in today’s journaling. I’ve realized there’s a pattern here. (I’ve attached my chicken scratches - the IV is in my left arm today and I’m left handed lol) This is the pattern in case you can’t read it: reluctance > procrastination > pile up/ overwhelm/ cash flow crunch > push towards a “cliff”/ afraid of asking for help/ stress > last minute stressful “save” by reactive action > back to reluctance. I’m just putting it out to everyone as it feels like a profound observation that will requiring unpacking. I don’t know if this is a result of my poor upbringing, lack of financial education/ example, habits of startup business, some trauma around my previous marriage, or that dragon head of inadequacy.