@Spark Evans an old friend of mine used to say “nothing changes if nothing changes.” and as much as i want to not like him now, it’s such a good motto 🫩

@Mevak Vocal yessss! thanks for clarifying :)) i definitely need to get into dropping irl samples into my work. for christmas last year i got this cool field notes -type recorder, where ive since recorded so many cool out of context sounds. but i never know how add them in, since they start as raw unprocessed sounds. sometimes though, when i’m really feeling it..? i’ll drop the entire recording in a session, and just mess with those potential samples, making a kit. my favorite thing about these recordings is that frequently there’s an unexpected but totally audible rhythm. it could be rustling leaves, or moving water, and the fact that it was an unintentional pattern of movement feels magical. organic. i often wonder how much more full my music would feel if i largely replaced programmed sounds with recorded samples. u got me thinking :p

this is so odd to come across, because it’s like looking into a mirror. i’ve started to notice how much less time i put into working on music in comparison to the past. hear me out. i get comparing is an unhealthy habit. but i want to begin my journey to finding that fire again. i worry that it doesn’t mean as much to me anymore because ive started to live with being a musician less (if that makes sense). and its hardly something i bring up at work. why, you may ask? i just don’t feel like the catalogue matches my capabilities. but that’s where it gets stuck. because i can’t find it in myself to show people what im about right now. ugh. frustrating.

@Eric Coyne this was such an insightful read, and i really appreciate you taking the time to write it down! first of all, thank you for your service. secondly, i hope i can take a few of your minutes :) i was really moved by what you said about falling back into it after being in a different state of life. up until recently, i was convinced i had to be miserable to make impressive work. during 2020, like many, i had a lot of things going on all at once. i felt like they were beating me down, and creating music and releasing it to the world was the shield. i felt, and continue to feel, like i was putting out my best, and most emotionally-raw work out there. because life went back to normal afterwards. and it’s strange how we kind of went straight to pretending like nothing happened, because i feel like i had to abandon, or sideline this creative personality. and just let life do its thing. i felt a lot of guilt for that, these last few years. because away from a life of creating musical pieces in my room, i felt uninspired. and when i tried to return to it whenever there was time, it was the same thing. maybe some of that guilt comes from watching my friends and adversaries succeed in just that. (i’m 22 now) there are so many issues there, i should probably save that for therapy. but reading your response was really enlightening, because aside from the envy of seeing others succeed in my desirable way, it allows me to believe my life doesn’t have to make sense and solve itself immediately in those capacities. but maybe i should start picking up the pace ;) all that to say. your response moved someone today. keep sharing! maybe we’ll cross paths again :) h.a.

@Tom Baldwin Hey! I really appreciate your thorough response, and checking out my post :) I am curious about your mention of practices, and please forgive my ignorance. I get people do different things seeking enlightenment or alignment, and depending on the source, they’ll get different results. Of many questions, my main one is, What are some things you’ve learned through your practices? Maybe it’s too broad of a question, but i wonder about the things we take with us when we go on these journeys. Thanks for sharing:) h.a.

@Raymone Ponce-Williams Right! After high school I kind of stopped seeking that “intuitive insight”. I’m just nervous about getting scammed, so I don’t really know what’s going on inside myself 😵‍💫

hey raymone welcome aboard!! #teamfl 🖤🖤