This is hilarious! Possibly one of my worst games, where i pretty much tried to hang every single piece on the board: 1. e4 d5 2. exd5 Qxd5 3. Nc3 Qe5+ 4. Qe2 Nc6 5. Qxe5 Nxe5 6. d4 Nc6 7. Bb5 Bd7 8. Bf4 Nxd4 9. Bxc7 Bxb5 10. O-O-O Ne2+ 11. Ngxe2 Bxe2 12. Nxe2 Rc8 13. Ba5 b6 14. Bb4 e6 15. Nd4 Nf6 16. Nb5 Bxb4 17. Nxa7 Rc7 18. Nb5 Rc5 19. Nc7+ Rxc7 20. Rhe1 O-O 21. Re4 Bc5 22. Rc4 Rfc8 23. c3 Bxf2 24. Rxc7 Rxc7 25. Rd8+ Ne8 26. Rxe8# 1-0 Not sure how to upload the game or link to be honest - i usually use my phone to play... But basically highest rating now!

Only one way: play Computer with a Queen handicap as many games with the tournament time controls as possible. Pick one opening and consistently use it during training. The goal is to lose, because your trying to see the enemy's angle of attack for MAJORITY of moves within the chosen opening. When you're sick of losing during training, you're gonna start developing your counterattacks and traps before you sleep, after waking up, out of frustration. Take proactive advantage of your fear of failure. "Like everyone else you want to learn the way to win but never to accept the way to lose- to accept defeat. To learn to die is to be liberated from it. So when tomorrow comes you must free your ambitious mind and learn the art of dying." (Bruce Lee)