Thoughts on delaying gratification at the cost of personal enjoyment
So in the UK, it's approaching summer now and the days are getting longer and brighter. Naturally, I'm seeing more motorbikes around, and its reminding me how much I miss riding. I had a crash early last year and haven't been on a bike since, not out of fear, but because I'm now working full-time, building a business on the side and training 6x per week. Naturally, my time is quite limited, but I have found myself increasingly wanting to get back on the bike, and be able to go out on beautiful Friday evenings such as these. The reason I haven't is because I know my parents would heavily disprove and probably stop supporting me (I live at home with them). I also understand the risk of being in another accident could potentially derail my plans of building the business and achieving financial freedom. I've promised myself that once I'm earning enough money, I will regularly attend trackdays and get back on the bike. The issue is, I don't know how long that will take, and I find myself questioning if I will regret sacrificing (probably) the only hobby I have ever truly loved and done for the sake of pure enjoyment, unlike all the other activities I do in my life which I do, partially for enjoyment, but also with the purpose of improving myself (fitness, reading books, dance classes, martial arts, building business). These thoughts have been recurring since I had to scrap the bike, and I haven't fully 'solved' it in my mind. I'm unsure if there is a concrete answer to this situation, but I would appreciate any perspectives that those of you - who have had the patience to read this - may be kind enough to share. I am aware that this subject may not be explicitly related to the purpose of this community, but I thought I would share as there may be some tangential themes around mindset, purpose and fulfilment.