My Big Rocks: 1. Fix my work situation that is draining me 2. Practice exercises that help my nervous system to come out from survival mode. I am here because I want to find peace with my ADHD finally and I want to accept myself for who I am and start to live my life the way it works for me instead of trying to fit into a box I was forced into. I commit to do the exercises in the blueprint and engage with this community. When it gets hard, I will return to my Big Rocks and remind myself what’s the most important to me right now.

The mirror principle just clicked. My cluttered flat that I keep "shoving stuff away" in is the exact shape of the beliefs I can't let go of. And my morning exhaustion isn't laziness - my nervous system has been bracing against a building where I spent six years being abused. My body still thinks I'm in danger.

Just realized the voice telling me I'm "broken and will never get fixed" isn't actually mine - it's stitched together from my parents and my ex-husband. And the wildest part? I already have evidence it's a lie. I just hadn't connected the dots until now.

Okay… slightly gross question, so apologies in advance Does anyone else have a picking problem? Like… if there’s a scab on my body, it’s basically a personal challenge. My brain is like, “oh, we’re doing this.” but at the same time i dobit without even thinking about doing it.... I know that is a contradiction 🤔 I’ve been like this for as long as I can remember, so I finally looked it up and apparently it’s actually a thing called Dermatillomania (aka Excoriation Disorder). It falls under body-focused repetitive behaviors (BFRBs), kind of in the OCD family. Just curious if I’m alone in this or if this is one of those “why are we like this” club situations 🤔 🤣🥰

Section 2 of the Awakening Assessment just showed me that the same sensitivity I used as a kid to save a pigeon that couldn't fly got redirected into perfectionism and people-pleasing. I climbed from barista to store manager chasing approval I didn't actually want. Turns out the "invisible one" is actually a natural community-builder underneath.