Oh is this what I’ve been feeling? Feel like I’ve been falling through expectations floor and through jealousy floors and there’s also a me in here that doesn’t want to allow me to reach out because the expectation and jealousy floors are not sturdy I find myself in them lately

I’m saying it out loud in a way opposite of being in my usual defense when triggers . after I let myself hear my triggers I’m able to …. Hear my heart. Sometimes it takes a few minutes few hours few days and sometimes…like when it comes to you two it’s taking me longer. I find myself expecting to be your little girl but I’m not so it’s a little hard

Y’all should be an official work of it isn’t already 😊

@Sherry Patterson 🤭🤭🤭🤣

Hehehe 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

I’m sorry for not being responsive and active. I’m not sure what I’m feeling. Has nothing to do with you all. When I see the notifications piling up in the app I get nervous to open it because I haven’t been active in general with online. I’m in a be here be here mode where I am with who’s in front of me with who bursts into my door. I’m sorry for being away, i love all that you have created and continue to do and give. I’m making space for me and it’s consuming my day I used to have more time to do other things and now that I’m stretching breathing working out talking to the people around me online seems to be put on the back burner (used to be the other way around) I’m sorry for not being active here I love looking through this I’m sitting in an uber on my way to see my brother his wife and my niece

☺️☺️☺️☺️ y’all make me blush

…um….This is something I have been asking myself all weekend and have yet to find calm in it. It’s causing me to push away and disconnect further as I watch the happenings happen