Gathering the confidence to stay my own business but where I live, I have a past around here but I don't want that to stop me but I feel like it might, idk just not fully confident. I'm level 5 now woop woop

Feeling crushed and defeated, not just about addiction, just everything. Just feel like a rag in dirty laundry lol

Today’s win is simple: 199 days of sobriety. Sitting in my first Lean Six Sigma class tonight, it hit me that I’m only here because I’m sober. A 7pm class used to be a non-starter. That was drinking time, baby! I'd be a six pack of tallboys in right now, minimum. And the truth is, I wouldn’t have tried to balance both, or shown up drunk. I just wouldn’t have signed up at all. Such a great example of how alcohol and drug addiction creates an artificial ceiling on our achievement. I haven’t been counting the days closely, but it’s kind of funny to land on 199. One short of 200. A nice, round milestone right there within reach.

Completed morning routine Crushed it at the gym, then jumped in the pool and kind of joined a water aerobics class with the active older adults. I was doing my own thing though, so I was more AOA adjacent. Steam room and sauna. The sauna was empty today so I was dancing to my playlist and having a grand time! Scheduled calls to close loops. Tomorrow: starting a new meditation practice, committing to 30 additional minutes in the morning for at least a week to integrate the experience from this weekend. I’m working on showing up on social media. So I’m going to actually spend some time there connecting and making a post.

Had an incredible time at the retreat and made it back home. Journaled the entire plane ride home…14 pages (with my right/dominant hand) Am training myself to use my left hand. It’s slow and messy but also slows my brain down and I’m really loving it. Pic attached. Tomorrow: Call one of my co-facilitator and nail down his rate, timing and expectations for Sept. Complete required paperwork for the Farm My daughter is getting braces on so I’m going to keep it a light day so I can be available to spend it with her.