So I think probably the hardest decision that hurt was (is) to draw a firm boundary and basically sever ties with my parents - specifically my father. Please know I did and say this without any anger, hatred or resentment towards him/them – but found it as a necessary act of love. I wasn’t physically abused, my parents weren’t drunks or anything negative like that - they did what they thought was right from their own level of awareness (which is low). Since birth we only know to trust our parents and most children (like me) do that. However, even those parents with best intentions can damage or suppress our external growth during our early, formative years. As I came into my own mindfulness, I became aware it is not about letting them live their truth through me, or helping them find theirs. They need to use their own free will and energy to heal and not try and manipulate or absorb mine. I think we’re conditioned since our parents brought us into this world we have keep them in our lives no matter what. But I have realized I was a soul before I was anyone’s child, parent, sibling, cousin or friend. I’m not saying everyone should abandon their parents or family in order to heal themselves. But for me this was one emotional hook that that I had to remove so I could grow in this incarnation. The pain is lessening - but it is a deep wound - that is healing.

Hi Everyone - I meant to respond sooner, but I’ve been digging out with the rest of NJ:) So for me, there wasn’t a specific “ah-ha” moment that I woke – it was really once I eliminated the Big 3 of: alcohol, drugs and cigarettes (sorry I know this isn’t an AA or NA group). But in all honestly I spent a lot of time stifling my frequency to make myself feel better (or so I thought). Once I eliminated the static/interference caused by those habits, I began to gain clarity in observing my life and nature. This allowed me to see all the breadcrumbs I left myself to find my true path – which I’m navigating now (with Ariella’s guidance and medicine). I’ve truly realized that every tear, bruise, smile or laugh has been intricately timed to come into my life at the right time (whether I wanted it to or not). I now understand these were to nudge me along to my truth - and it’s wonderful. That said, having learned what I know now, I am working on listening to and trusting my inner self, because that is where our true compass lies. I realize this is done through patience and awareness and not trying to control or force situations into place. While we all are connected to the same Light, we have all engineered specific experiences and people on our paths to heal us and (eventually) return to that Source. I understand sometimes I am going to fall down (make mistakes) on this journey and it can really hurt at times but each time I get up – I’m stronger than I was before I fell. Ultimately we are all here to elevate ourselves and those around us and shift the collective consciousness on a whole. That is an easy sentence to write, but a difficult task to carry out. Especially when it comes to releasing the energy of not only our past incarnations, but the ancestral energy we carry as well. But directly or indirectly we are here to help guide, educate and enlighten one another with our thoughts and experiences. So I look forward to sharing, learning and listening with all of you.

Hello Nicole - it's nice to connect with you here, looking forward to sharing our experiences.