I planned this as a community. It was a thing to do for others, and that's maybe where I have fallen short. My idea was "response based" - it's the only thing I have space for at this point in time. I have dealt with multitude of issues and situations that I've put myself into, learned a variety of facts, approaches and solutions. I also have met a great amount of different indivduals that I've studied and dedicated 7 years of my life to studying and working in exactly this. I had a one-woman business for self-developement, and I left when there was time for a shift (a little later than that actually, that was painful, haha) not because lack of success. That is an important fact. I was living very comfortably off of the knowledge I've earned and the programmes I did. I loved doing it, but I needed to move towards me even more (sailing) - and since that was what I was teaching and preaching, I did it. Eventualy. Left my high income area that I build a name and a bit of legacy in certain circles and left it for the unknown, to build again. Something else. It was very uncomfortable for me to leave my life of what I considered to be a great security, but to pursue ones existence is an inevitable path, if you don't want to suffer. And eventually - be happy, be you. Why I am saying this - I started this SKOOL as a side project, for people in need or desire of some of the information I gathered and possibly some personal push - in times I had zero money, zero direction, was lost and despreately wanted to be found - I wished for a person like that in my life, so I can get help in acquiring the nessesary propulsion for me going forward. At least a little. And all I saw was mostly scammers, that were repeating information of one another and they couldn't comprehend those. And when there was someone truly skilled or talented (I've seen 2 in my life, maybe 5 with wider circle), they were insanely pricey for me (talking 2000USD or more). I felt lost. I felt that if I didn't get the help, I will never get over myself and do what I want or at least make those 2000USD to afford that person I wanted to work with, because those two are very closely related. It was a circle for my troubled mind. Also bullshit, but that's what I felt at that time.

I’m realizing that emotions mostly live in the body, and if you don’t process them, they kind of get stuck and you start feeling weird. What techniques do you know for working with that? The main technique I’m using is this one: deep breathing, naming the emotion, noticing where it sits in the body, letting it fully be there for a moment (like a color), and then releasing it — imagining it leaving through the heels. I also do some somatic movement: light dancing, moving the hips and shoulders, fingers, bouncing, and simple yoga, like Surya Namaskar. I’m curious if there are other approaches that work well for you. Would love to hear about them.

1st of January, but really 2nd, because it is, indeed, long after midnight. I am going to do a somewhat of a program with you people. We will let it flow and see how it goes. I am pretty determined to give you all the helpful tools I can think of. The first one has to do with self-discovery. The building stone of any individual progress. To know one's self is an essential to moving forward effectively on one's life path and towards one's contentment and possible happiness. Therefore, we start with a little exercise. Many times we define ourselves as one blob of a person, which is very common in this society. Thus, things can get blurry, when we try to see or decode what we want. Questions arise, like “what we should want”, “why we want this or that”, “why we don't know”…etc. And sometimes the answers are contradictory. But what if I told you that you, as one, are a collection of many? Human life is ever-changing, and we never truly lose our parts. Develop them, yes, but it is most helpful to make them see and understand each other rather than have them fighting in muddy waters. To the exercise! Define who you are by defining your parts. It’s a similar principle to breaking a big task into several small ones. Managing a big task can seem overwhelming and hard to navigate in, but when separated into smaller pieces - it suddenly becomes manageable. So who is all of you? What are your parts? Give it a thought. Breathe in for the question. Tune in with yourself and feel out who those parts, that are taking an active part in your being? Even the smallest one. Think about it, feel about it. It can be the child you, the mechanic you, the parent you, the old and wise you that knows everything already, the teenage you, the 300 years old you, the hurt you, the rebel you, the young adult you, the student you, the alchemist you, the priest you, the elemental you, the guardian of the rivers you, the tennis player carrying a cat and a walnut you. Whatever parts you feel. Think about them, see them. Give them names if you must. All of this is an inspiration. Though I strongly reccomend to include "the child you", because that part usually has a lot to say.

So here we are. It is my innate passion to help people realize who they are, what they want, and live exactly that. So we're starting a community here! Even with the biggest challenges, losses, and being lost yourself there's always a way to follow the threads back to YOU. We are creating a space where people can open fearlessly. Here we help each other, we are vulnerable here and don`t judge for nothing. No, seriously, judging here is strictly prohibited. I don't live by that, and I believe in authentic uniqueness of human being - and you should too if you want to be a part of this. Here we are to strip the societal conditioning, if we need to. And not if we don't. It can be triggering, difficult, but also easy, fiery and stormy, and calm. The path to ones-self is everchanging and untaimable. So if you dare to follow this path and rise again from whatever you've been bathing in, what is supposedly holding you back - here we go. Do you feel open enough? What is your biggest struggle? One of mine is fear of being "not enough". And I will do the next post about that, because it is essentially very easy to understand how it works and how to overcome it. So go on - what is yours?