Hehe, already forgot the questions, but… I'm still thinking about yesterday's call... May I share what I'm feeling? I'm feeling shame when realizing how little intentionally I created the life and circumstances I find myself in today. Time ran and suddenly I'm 46, premenopause is kicking in, my son is almost 18, my daughter 14, my partnership is on the edge and with the plandemic we moved to the most isolated countryside we could find in Germany. It's beautiful here, but also... isolated. 😅 If I could do it all over again, I would be a lot more conscious about what type of partnership I wish and need, and only get pregnant when the partnership is a really stable foundation for a family to be built. Everything else gets everyone involved into a whole whirlwind of inner and outer trouble. I've always felt a lot of potential in my being, and always postponed living it fully to a future that seems to have passed by already. I currently work as a web- and branddesigner and I love it. It's always been my thing to see and feel people's essence and I love to express and mirror that visually. And still, I feel that I could be a lot more of service for others... In the past years I've gone down all the rabbit holes and future doom scenarios. Now our many stocked supplies have passed their expiration date and I kind of put my head in the sand, not to be overwhelmed by fear for my kids. Germany is reintroducing military service and I'm already noticing my heart-rate go up... Moving to another country is still on my radar, but I don't want to move out of fear again. It impressed me yesterday to see the energy Samantha still has to figure out the best path through it all, and it made me notice the part in me that has almost given up. I lost quite some feathers by fighting mandatory school during covid and I feel I'm still in recovery mode. 😌 So, I need some inspiration for these topics again and I hope that it is ok if I'm not super on fire yet. Plus, I'm in a super expensive polarity coaching at the moment and it's very confusing to see so many happy sovereign women when all my coach wants to convey is that I need to relax into submission and following a man's leadership. 😂🤪😆