@Nate McMillan As a fellow vet that battles PTSD, there are three orgs that can help. CreatiVets will help you put the pain to music and even record it with you. If you look them up on your favorite streaming service you can listen to some the great songs they have helped some of our brothers and sisters record. Also Guitars for Vets is where I started, they gave me 12 free lessons, once I finished those they gave me a guitar and we meet just to jam and be brothers once a month. Finally Cavarts , is an online community, they also have an G4V chapter with some videos. I have found through Guitars for Vets that Music is actually what feeling sound like. Keep your head up brother, and always remember if you suffer the disease wins but if you battle you have a chance.