Hi all, I hope this is ok to post. I'm looking for others perspective on how they might work through this. I have noticed a pattern/association with money and me. Mostly in life, I have just enough to get by. On the occasions where I have had, what I consider to be, a lot of money it has always come from accident or death. 7 times in my life I can identify a significant amount of money and it always came after pain and suffering 🤔 I will be honest and say that I feel weird about money that is extra, I guess. I just don't know quite how to move around this, or is recognising the pattern enough? Any experience or insight welcome 🙏

I’m creating a Beginner Homesteader Experience. Much of it is in person hands on experience. There is also a lot that can be done virtually. How to pick a site, choosing community, necessary communication skills, soil and soil food web science and permaculture concepts. I’d love to share this here if anyone is interested.

I have had a massive deeper level of awakening this morning. Kundalini energy if you will. The energy is so much in the best ways! I am overflowing with joy, love and excitement!!! Almost to the point I am unsure where to aim it all. 😆❤️🙏🏻 The gratitude, all because I have finally let go and am being my true self! I had an amazing night last night and just decided to embrace myself, all parts of me. I am so in love with myself, others, and life. I just wanted to share as others around me in this awareness are still being attracted so I just really wanted to be able to get it out there. It is done, it is done, it is done!!! 🎉🙌🏻🥹 Now I know where the saying, star blood doesn’t get tired comes from. Woah. 🤯 ✨ 🛸

My favorite thing to share right now is my art. I got inspired by Kentucky critters and have done a few drawings and paintings of some. Here’s my cardinal. They’re here all the time, but they pop out in the Winter.

Recently realized I don’t do anything fun that doesn’t involve my “work” projects. So today I sat here and thought what might bring me joy today. I asked my daughter to go to Florida with me for the weekend on the spur of the moment. I’m in cold New York and have had enough of this winter. Well she couldn’t go because she had work. Meanwhile I left my job so I could do what I want anytime instead of continually missing out on my kids. The irony is that now she’s busy, responsible and doesn’t want to miss work. So instead we bought some new plants together which was really quite fun. Then we bought some basketballs for a charity. Not a trip to Florida, but it was nice. I’m counting it as a win.