Normally my posts are much longer, but I’m here to stop in and share a quote that’s really helping me lately and resonates deeply with where I’m at on my journey. “The stress from trying to be perfect will kill you quicker than your imperfections.” - Unknown To me this hits deeply and I interpret it as, yes, we can always do better, but accept where we’re at and know that we’re doing our best in the moment. So what if we mess up and have bad moments. We can’t always be perfect or 💯 We’re here to grow and learn what we need to on our paths. Be patient and gentle with yourself 🙏🏻🫶🏻

I’ve gone through so much in the past 6 months. Too much to even begin to recap on. But one of the many things I’ve gone through was overcoming my addiction to Red Bull. Now, does this compare to a lot of addictions like smoking, harder drugs, alcohol, or anything else in that realm? I’m not sure, but I do know that they caffeine and sugar are super addictive, so from my experience, I can verify this is true… I’ve only beat my addiction to the Red Bull, not the sugar and caffeine yet. Although I’m only having caffeine about 3 times a week now rather than every day and twice in a day. SO, how did I overcome it using awareness and not fighting, struggling or putting pressure on myself to “do better?” I allowed myself to have it. I gave up, I let go, I just accepted that I craved the Red Bulls and allowed myself to drink them, but I observed it and became aware of it. I shed some light on it and I kid you not… For the first time in forever, I don’t crave them now! Before, from the mind, I struggled so much and was so hard on myself and put a constant pressure and stress on my shoulder to “be better” or “do better” and sure enough, from pure willpower, I would quit the energy drinks (mostly Red Bull) but then since it was from forced effort, I still craved them and when I relapsed every time, I always drank so many in that first week back to them (my heart hated me every time 🥲😅) I’m sharing this with all of you because lasting change really does come when we surrender to things and let go and give it to source. I became aware and then didn’t do anything besides meditate and go deeper inside of myself and observe everything that I would like to change in my life. The mind is in disbelief because I’m not sitting here writing about Red Bull and craving one. I had one about a week ago and it tasted so awful to me. A miracle? No, just letting go. I allowed myself to chase the desire, then I tasted and observed my desire, and then I wasted it… I gained the natural strength to can it for good (no pun intended) and I’ll be honest. It doesn’t feel real, and feels too good to be true, but it worked for me. I’m not promising or saying this will work for anyone else, but I will leave this quote here that helped me do it in a more gentle way with a more loving approach. “The stress from trying to be perfect will kill you quicker than your imperfections.” This is only words, but they shook me to my core and made me realize that it’s so true! I’ve always been way to hard on myself and not accepting of my imperfections, and now as I’m getting better and better at coming back to the heart quicker when I get pulled in by the mind, I see that love and light is the way to go.

Yet another day has come and gone, and you still wonder where you’ve gone wrong… You pushed so hard and gave it everything you had, just to end up back where you were and possibly more sad… The more you try the more you lose yourself, yet you keep searching for an answer in what feels like hell… You ask will this nightmare ever come to an end, the time you’ll finally never have start all over again… This was supposed to be the time your suffering stopped, and you proved everyone wrong and made it to the top… But all that’s left is emptiness along with the biggest void, and all of your hopes and dreams completely destroyed… This leads to you giving up and letting everything go, but next thing you know this allows the energy to flow… After holding on so tightly and jumping through every hoop, all you had to do is accept and surrender to get out of the endless loop… -Alex A friendly reminder to stop suffocating things in life and let go of wanting control. Let what’s going to happen, happen. Let it be and break the cycle of drowning yourself in worries. There’s nothing wrong with you. Trust the process and go into the unknown 🙏🏻🫶🏻

Had a poem come to me tonight. Felt like this one needed to be shared ❤️ Your whole world feels as though it’s turning to black, you’re a prisoner of the mind and you fear there’s no turning back… Complete turmoil, chaos, madness, and an unbearable wrath, broken in a million pieces and feeling like you’ve lost sight of the path… Yet, somewhere, deep inside of you, there’a a distant little spark, barely illuminating anything at all, but just one flicker of light can banish the dark… No matter how much the mind consumes you and feeds you these lies, even one tiny second of presence is enough to reveal the true “I” Much love! Alex 🙏🏻🫶🏻