🥹 Feeling RUBBISH ?- please read
November/December were super tricky for me. I lost my umphhh 🥲. I didn’t want to function… truth is, I’ve effectively spent 3 years regaining as much mobility as i could. I lost 30 kg … could move more, had lottts of MENTAL STRENGTH 💪🧠 Then all of a sudden… I reached a 🥹 WHAT’s THE POINT …in all this moment????! In my twenties I accomplished a dream of 🏝️LIVING ABROAD 🌴 for university- with a wheelchair, i OVERCAME CHALLENGES… lessened my anxiety in order to live their more relaxed 😎 lifestyle Recently, i felt a failure…. You see- 3.5 years ago, an OPERATION rendered me bed bound and severely depressed 😔. I had fought.. became stronger through exercise- but, what for? I needed ANOTHER AIM/PURPOSE 😘😍 Whilst I was on a HIGH in September- i booked to SOLO TRAVEL 🧳- first time in 20 years!!! Subsequently, spent the following 2 months having what felt like DAILY MELT DOWNS .😣😢 HOW COULD I DO IT??? I was too DEPENDENT TOO ANXIOUS 😬 TOO WOBBLY IN MOVING WHAT IFFFFFF? Intrusive thoughts came back 😕 I nearly gave up on myself….. THERE WAS A PIECE HOWEVER; That knew if I QUIT… ❌❌❌😵 I’d regret it… STAY TUNED 😘 FOR PART TWO!! ❤️❤️❤️