I feel this rant belongs in the challenges section because I find myself in the strange space between being aware, wanting to let the process happen - to feel the situation, and wanting very much to preserve my own peace and reject the more than natural feelings that are coming up this week. I'm talking about the elelphant in the room or rather the stampede of angry, incredulous, fearful and devastating feelings that are driving the elephants throughout our global awareness. I'm an American living in Eastern Europe and I cannot unsee nor unaware myself of the elephants. Yet the horror is so thick with reality that dissociation is attractive and probably a necessary part of processing in order to stay with that reality and hold space for the truth, to not make little or make light of what it is, to not deny and reject what we are about to face for the coming months and years. Obviously, this becomes a huge obstacle to being creative, at least right now. Getting into the flow to create something with whimsy, passion or concentration feels forced, strained. In equal measure, I cringe to think of writing as a way to express what I'm feeling, to create something from this unprecedented time in our communal consciousness. It all just feels inherrently inadequate. I dare not speak of the stampede of elephants. It's too hard, too hardcore. But these are my personal feelings, and perhaps it's just challenging because I must prepare myself to both express and supress my feelings on the topic whenever it's broached with the 20 or so other feeling, thinking professional adults I will meet over the next week. I wonder if anyone else has similar feelings? Is anyone else dismayed and distracted to the point that writing isn't flowing, that the mind must detach, and somehow the elephants must be addressed before returning to our creations? Or perhaps you are blessed with enough distance to be able to express something poigniant, and it has great potential for your creative process? Thank you for reading and I would be grateful for your thoughts, as a different perspective would be amazing.