"How can I overcome storms of resistance?
I give everything, everything I can.
With every breath, is much ever enough?
What is futile, when is it better to give up?
Do you get everything, everything out of yourself?
With every breath, is much ever enough?"
These lines are from the musical Maria Theresa, which is currently playing in Vienna.
When I heard the chorus for the first time, it touched something deep inside me.
Like an echo that created a silent resonance.
It reminded me of a feeling that I had suppressed for a long time and that led me to a realization that changed my life.
Many things that I had perceived as negative suddenly shone in a new light. I am talking about the time before I realized that I am a scanner personality, when I often doubted myself and felt like I didn't belong. I also struggled with resistance—both internal and external—and felt that I and my actions were not enough. Giving everything and yet not at peace with myself.
But then I realized that I am good the way I am and that what I did and still do is the right thing. That my path is now clearer before me. The song reminded me of what my path once looked like and how it ultimately shaped me. And there is a quiet gratitude that I can finally be who I am—free, independent, and strong.
How about you? Do you have poems, songs, texts, or other artistic forms that give you a similar feeling?